only you

there are too many people i write vague you posts to. this is not to the same person i have writing them to lately.

i'm tired of always feeling like i come second to everyone else in your life. stay here? no you'd rather stay with mindy. tech with me? no you want to be with trent. it may be completely ridiculous but i'm sick of it. never any time for me and always time for him. and i understand that you are close but i am your girlfriend and would like it if maybe once or twice i came first. not trent, not mindy, me. is that too much to ask? i need to get better at expressing myself because i have a feeling you have absolutely no idea i feel this way. even you make me invisible. silent. one day i will speak up and surprise you and what will you do then?