don't close your eyes

i know you've told me not to come to this conclusion but what other conclusion can i reach when faced with what i see? i don't want it to be this way. no matter what you say i have the gut feeling that i have imagined it all. that it was never really true. and dammit, you weren't supposed to go away and come back hotter. i am getting nowhere with you and i can't let it go and i can't get through.

are you still there?