like the sun in the sky

some days are quiet and some days are loud, some are sunny and some are rainy, some are perfect and some just suck, and some days are made for sitting in the sun and eating oranges and reading the phantom tollbooth. today is such an up-and-downer. sitting in the sun eating fresh oranges can never go wrong. getting an email is wonderful. i got on top of a ladder, i wrote a long email, i sat around in my apartment listening to pretty girl-and-guitar music feeling pretty in my blacks with my crazy hair, writing a long email to a certain lo. today is peaceful, not in a good or bad way. peaceful. the ups are outweighing the downs. im content, more or less. one [free dress] day to freedom, and im not even really dreading the imminent family vacation. peaceful. more days should be like this.

and yet im not okay.