sometimes i started to doubt...doubt that it was true that i'd ever had you, that i might still. but then the doubts dissolve and i'm left loving you as much as ever, wishing i could be close enough to touch you, that girl i can see only on my computer screen. i can't be a pessimist when it comes to you, no matter what. i never believed in anything being unconditional, ever. i didn't believe in much of anything really. constants and my life just don't get along...but then you came along and really you're the only constant i've got.

so just know that no matter what, unconditionally, i love you.

you don't deserve to cry...you don't deserve to have shit in your life...you're beautiful and wonderful and through all the shit, even if sometimes it's hard, i will be there.

and i can't believe that i...could somehow...maybe...deserve you. deserve any of this. i can't think of anything i've ever done to deserve something this good.