i don't want to do anything productive or even fun anymore, just sleep. forever. there's nothing better than lying in my bed under the covers warm and safe and feeling the overused/overworked feeling in my head slowly slip away...except it never does. it's always still there, sending me back off into sleep to try to escape it. i hate thinking at the speed of molasses, slowly and disjointedly moving from one topic to another. there's just no pooint to any of it anymore. and no matter how much i sleep i'm still exhausted and stretched this, and i don't thing there's anything i can do about it. i don't want to be useless and lazy but i don't want to do anything else either. i want to escape from my head for a few precious minutes, get out of the constant loops and snags of my mind. it's overworked. overtired. entirely checking out on life and me and leaving me walking through life a zombie, living from one nap to the next.