it's not a shock. it's not even really affecting me that much. no crying...our friendship was a wreck anyway. nothing's changed except that we've given up trying. i'm hurt more by what she said about me than the fact that i've been ditched. i am not that person she described, not at all. can't you see me? no...you're too wrapped up in your own little world to even try. yes i've changed...there was so much you didn't see before. but i'm just numbly hurt, and pissed off. it doesn't feel real.