to a different you:

do you know how much you've been pissing me off lately? i feel like our entire friendship is based around you. i talk you through your problems, listen to you bitch at me, even about me. is it wrong to need a little love and attention? all i want is to be able to tell you my problems...to have you listen...but no, you don't want to hear about them. it's all give and no take. every time you say something to me...it's you-centric. always. was our friendship always this one-sided? am i that blind? and do you even bloody care? you say you do...but when's the last time you actually asked a question about something in my life and stayed to hear the answer before rattling off into one of your problems again. and every time i start to go crazy, you have to be more fucked up than me. it's not a fucking competition goddammit! i don't care who's more fucked up. i'll gladly give you the prize. but it feels sometimes like you want to be fucked up for the attention it gets you. get the fuck off your high horse and stop preaching to me. i don't want to hear it anymore, until we're equals. stop pretending you know what to do about everything in my life. every word i say to you dissapears into a vacuum and i never see it again, never get a response. do you even hear me?

i care about you but it can only go so far. i can't keep sacrificing myself for you forever. maybe that's why i annoy you so much lately, because i no longer want to be the inanimate Friend. i no longer live by your rules or pay attention to what you think i should and shouldn't do.

if you can't accept me as i am and if you don't care, then just fucking tell me and i'll fuck off...like hell you miss me. you miss having someone to bitch at about your problems.

fuck you. i've wanted to say that for a while but i haven't because i didn't want to hurt you...now i think it's time to be honest though.

you're not so perfect and you're a hypocrite. don't bitch other people out for doing exactly what you do.

stop making me feel like i don't matter.