i've fallen into one-line, sometimes cryptic posts lately. i'll try to remedy that.

i'm so manic right now. this is wreaking havoc with my brain and my sleep patterns. this morning i woke up somewhere around seven entirely of my own accord and couldn't fall back asleep. i lay there in bed and wondered why the hel my body had done this because usually it's a miracle if i'm out of bed before eleven. i'd force myself back off into sleep and dream of computer screens, looking exactly the way i wanted them to. when io finally got up i was so convinced the my dreams had to have been true that i checked my email. no, no new mail. damn it all. all my nervous quirks are out in full force and i'm about 80% cat right now.

way too much energy. have to do something, but don't know what to do. no bloody way i can write essay like this. my mind is spinning. i'm walking on a cloud.

coherency level...very low.

i want to walk out of here and find my way to you. i want to neurotically check my email a few more times. i want to go home and check the mailbox every night until my camp letter comes, even though they haven't been sent yet.