i want to say 'you're jealous? of me??' but then i realize that for once maybe there is something to be jealous of. that doesn't make it any less silly or annoying or utterly fucked up...but maybe i should stop giving myself so little credit.

maybe not.

but hey, life's going right. i like it. and i don't like being dragged back into this quagmire.

some of it i really understand but other stuff...chill out man. seriously. can i do anything without making you jealous? can i even be happy?