maybe i shouldn't be hurt, but i am. i know you have shit to deal with but we never talk enymore. you log on and never talk to me cuz you're off doing other stuff...at least tell me what the shit is. 'm always here to talk to...and maybe i'll understand. i guess i'm feeling ditched, and for good reason. and it hurts like hell because i thought we had something, i really cared, and now it feels like you're too busy to even try. it's still there, i can feel it, but the longer we go without talking the more i doubt. i really don't want it to end this way. not that i really think it's ending...i don't know what i think. but it doesn't feel right the way it is, never being able to talk.

i miss you. send me an email or call me or something, when you can, whenever you've got your shit worked out.

and if you ever need someone to bitch at you know where i'll be.