Monday, August 23, 2004

now is when courage comes

i remember you in the sun
your skin pale in the light
so pale against your shirt - dark red, i recall
i had to look away quickly
concentrate on saying hello to her
to avoid staring at you

and i remember you as the stage light washed over us
a look of absolute rapture on your face as you yelled out 'you're beautiful' and she heard you
and i stood there kissing lo
it felt so right
but so wrong at the same time
because i wanted to be kissing you.

at pizza
after the show
i marveled again at how beautiful you were

then when kim asked if i wanted to spend the night
i said yes
because i hoped you'd be there.
i didn't want this to be goodbye.

and the whole time it was lo and me
me and lo
as i wished i could catch your attention
because you were the one i wanted.

4 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

hey ir, it's alana

i miss you and i love you.

email me at dalailana623@yahoo.com, and send me your address and i'll write you.
i love you.

tear, give san francisco a hug for me (and everyone in it, too)

<3 - A

8:55 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

p.s., alex taran, that crazy chick with the crazy blue hawk that got sent away to that crazy lockdown is one of my good friends out here. crazy, huh?

-A

8:57 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

that was really harsh, iris. it's not like it's a big deal now being that it was almost a year ago, but things like that aren't ok. please know that. -lauren

6:16 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

listen, it really doesn't matter. but your email and this entry completely (i mean COMPLETELY) contradict each other, so i'm not sure which one to believe. you wrote this before you wrote the email, so i'm more inclined to believe what's here, but i'm really not sure about you and all of this anymore. this really isn't worth so much of our energy. it really doesn't matter. whatever. email me if you want.
-lauren

8:32 AM  

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