yesterday i missed the shuttle which was horrible. it was actually ealy or once. so i had to walk to the train station. i was walking along bryant and all of a sudden i hear a skateboard, which is really funny cuz i don't think i've ever seen a skateboard in rich palo alto before. i turn and look and coming up a side street is a really hot girl on a skateboard. ::melts:: oh man. so there was that. and then i was walking along university and this guy stopped me and asked me if i worked at pizza my heart because he'd seen me somewhere. it was really strange. i told him i had to go catch a train (i did!) which he didn't seem to believe. then as i was walking through the alma underpass i ran into alex (blue haired girl) who i've actually met now. huh. my world seems to be expanding beyond the bubble and i like it. for a long time the only people i knew in my current incarnation were casti people but since the summer i've brought in ctc people plus random people from shows and fomf and parties. it makes me really happy to have people i know all over the place. and apparently i'm far rom invisible if random guys are stopping me in the street swearing they've sen me somewhere around university...::grin::

fuck being sick. i actually am this time. my throat hurts and the diabolical garden gnome with a sledgehammer has moved into my head and refuses to be appeased by the gods of advil. and i'm insanely dizzy. ::mumbles incoherently:: i am a pile of mush. please take me somewhere pretty so i can happily mush and not have to worry about anything.

i had insane dreams last night. in one of them mike had a party and maddy got pissed off cuz she was persuaded he had had the party so he could fix me up with tyler. and then i had a dream where mike was a drug dealer. and then...i swear there was one that had to do with me, toni, and ballet. and then there's one that ended up not being a dream: my advanced conservatory acceptance letter. i told these guys back in november that i wasn't going to be using my audition waiver. i don't audition. i'm not going. so what comes in the mail today? my acceptance letter. i don't see quite how this works...so now i have to go email bill and tell him i'm not doing it. which isn't quite as hard because it's not at gunn this year. i still feel bad, though. i really need to get a job but i hate ditching the friends i've been hanging out with for the last four years...though there are only two of us left from the first year and i didn't even hang out with jon harms then. ::sigh:: i kinda want to go bak. my excuse recently has been that i couldn't get in at this point since auditions are over and i passed up the waiver. then the letter came. and i'm confused.

crap. i need to find a job really soon.