nobody's tried to guess crush/noncrush songs...oh well. they are, in no particular order and with no indication as to who's a crush and who's not: 'bridge over troubled water' is toni, 'fnt' is caddie, 'chained to you' is hannah, 'never saw blue like that' is carey, 'devil's dance floor' and 'ring of fire' are pat, 'loom' is emmalinda, 'shameless' is autry, and 'i believe i can fly' is alan (har har). i can't believe i ever dated that boy. i think i've come a long way since then...or at least i hope i have. he's gotten even skinnier and paler and is growing gross facial hair and dating mary-irene lang. yergh. i officially have never had anything to do with him.

(unrelated to the above) last night i was talking to tara and realized how much of what's happened this schoolyear i wish i could change, but at the same time i don't know if i actually would because maybe if things this year had happened differently i'd be an entirely different person and i'm actually finally getting comfortable with who i am. ::sigh::. i don't know what i'd do if i had everything to do over. maybe not make quite as much of a fool of myself over some things. fortunately most of the stuff that got screwed up has fixed itself. being able to talk to certain people again makes me insanely happy. i knew it would happen eventually but sometimes it felt like it never would and that made me sad cuz you're cool. anyway...i can't think of anything else to say except i miss you guys and we need to get together this week and i'll rescue jessie from eternal boredom and kat kicks ass. yay! (i have a note to give you when we get back.)

BOINK!