i can't get the technology to work that is supposed to be allowing me to do this project tonight, so i might as well blog instead, right? (please don't point out flaws in my logic, it's much too early for that).

so. there's something that's been on my mind all day. well, really, since period one long. because something i read got me thinking, and reminded me of something really random in rehearsal yesterday that confused me greatly and something i'd been wondering about for a couple of weeks...it all came together today and left me lost in confusion. so i resort to music to explain myself.

honey i want to know where you are tonight
and why you aren't here holding me tight
yeah i know that we're just friends
but i feel like maybe it's time to tie up some understandings
tie up some loose ends
cuz some people hide in a smile or a handshake
some hide in an embrace
and maybe i'm too trusting maybe i'm naive
but i thought i saw myself reflected in your face

i think you know who you are. and the one question that i mentioned earlier, the one that i was too scared of the answer, i think i'm going to go ahead and ask it. if you still like me, email me. please. because we're getting nowhere and i think we need to talk. somehow i feel like you're avoiding me even though i'm pretty sure that's not the case, but i really don't care if it is. that's not the point of this. i just want to know the truth, as it currently stands, because maybe that can help sort this whole thing out.

and i don't even know if you still read this, but i'm willing to take a chance. and yes, maybe i'm too much of a coward to ask you to your face, or even more personally, but i guess part of this is to see how much you know, whether you can figure out this is you.

::sigh:: do i make sense to anyone? anyone?

i thought not.