i can't take another heartache

i think i'm going to dump niki. it's gotten completely ridiculous. toni came and kidnapped me during lunch today and i saw niki and we didn't even kiss, i barely got a hug out of her, she doesn't even like being around me anymore. she doesn't make any effort to be either. it's really fucking depressing. and i've actually been calling her, trying to hang out with her, which were her two major gripes. this is ABSOLUTELY RIDICULOUS. we go to school two blocks away from each other and can't manage to hold together a goddamn relationship.

fuck this.

and it bugs me that she'd rather be with anyone but me. i know i've said this before, but even though we almost never see each other, when we do she's always running off and talking to the people she sees every fucking day.

and i'm completely and thoroughly fed up. i can only take so much stupid mindfuck.

now i just need to find a chance to talk to her.